A lot has happened this year. Some things have been great and others… well, not so much. I’m no longer bitter and right now I’m choosing not to fight the tides. Going with the flow has allowed me the opportunity to relax and see into the future a little better.
I remember a conversation I had with my father at a pretty young age when I revealed the fact that I wanted to be a writer. Perhaps a journalist…. the practical side of me knowing that a journalist would at least have a steady paycheck and that would make dad happy. It didn’t!!!!! I remember being told that writing was a hobby, not a profession and that I needed to get a profession where I would be able to support myself. Not bad advice but not great either. I don’t remember specifics at this point in my life anymore. I don’t know what happened once that advice was imparted but I believe that was the moment when I gave up my dreams of ever writing for a living. I didn’t even give it another try and I think I put away all my writing tools to focus on making my father happy.
Don’t get me wrong, we arrived at an agreement. I would not become a doctor nor a writer but I would be something that made both of us a little happy. It’s been a good run and I’ve enjoyed the benefits of being very good at what I do. However, as I said in the beginning of this post. A lot has happened this year……. some great and some not so much. In the midst of all the happenings I have set out a challenge for myself. I have found the courage to at least try to do what I want to do.
Write….. I’m going to write!!!!!
I’ve signed up for NaNoWriMo this year. If you don’t know what that is NaNoWriMo stands for National Novel Writing Month. In the month of November many published authors and some that are not published yet get together and form a community of writers who set goals for the month to write a novel or finish one… some make goals to edit a novel and get it ready to print and publish. This year, I’ve decided to enter and write 50,000 words of a novel I’ve been “cooking” up in my head. Through the month of November I will be writing and posting here with my progress. I don’t particularly care if no one reads it. This is for me, my dream, my life. As I said, some things that happened were good and some not so much but they all have allowed me to see that living others’ dreams is worth it. We all have disappointments but it’s far better to be disappointed having done something you loved and set your heart on fire than be disappointed having lived someone else’s life
A lot has changed this year…… and this is not the only dream I’m working on.
Here we go!!!!!