Some Books Just aren’t for Me

These are some really difficult times we are all going through.  The past couple of weeks, as I’ve been “forced” to stay home with little more to do than think, read, binge documentaries and other mindless shows, I’ve had plenty of time to come to terms with the fact that some books just aren’t meant for me.  It’s not necessarily the book that’s bad or the story is bad.  It’s just that the book does not resonate with me.

For the past four years I’ve made it a mission to read Anna Kerinina.  I’ve even downloaded the movie thinking that if I watched the movie I would feel inspired to read the book.  For four years I’ve beaten myself up because I still haven’t been able to accomplish that goal.  There is always another book, another something to do.  I can’t focus, I need water.  There is a blockage, I thought.  Why can’t I read this “stupid” book?

This week I came to terms with it.  It’s not the book and it’s not me.  We just aren’t meant to cross paths at this time.  I’m not going to force myself to read something that I’m not interested in reading.  Reading should not be painful and I always felt stressed when I sat down to read that book.  I don’t know why and perhaps I will never know why but does it matter?  Perhaps one day, without forcing it, I will pick it up again and read it and love it.  Right now I’m pretty certain that if I sit down and force myself to read it or listen to it, I’m going to resent it.  That will not be fair to the author or the book or the words written on the page.  A book should bring you pleasure and allow you to dream and envision yourself in the story.  Right now I would be reading it just to say I’ve read it and that’s no reason to read a book.

Anyway, I hope every one is doing well and staying healthy and enjoying time with a special book.  What is your special book?

Thanks for stopping by

Ana

Book Review – A Witch in Time by: Constance Sayers

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A week ago I was walking through Barnes & Noble not searching for anything in particular.  In fact I had decided, before walking into the store that I was not going to pick up any books.  I have a few on my Kindle that I’ve started and not finished yet.  Not because I’m not enjoying them but …. shiny object syndrome.

Anyway, true to self I wound up walking out with a new book (after paying for it, of course).  A Witch inTime by Constance Sayers.  I knew nothing about the author and I knew nothing about the book.  In fact, I hadn’t even seen anyone talking about it or seen it on any of the review publications I read.  Regardless, I picked it up from the new arrival shelves and read the inside cover.

Helen Lambert has lived several lives….

How could I not bring this baby home?  The book took me by surprise.  From the first page… Actually, from the blurb I was so completely taken in with it.

The story follows the lives of three women who are actually one woman.  Helen Lambert’s marriage to a famous art dealer is falling apart and her friend set her up on a blind date with a strange man who winds up revealing to her that he had been protecting her for centuries and that, in fact, she had been the one who had summoned him to that blind date.  At first she thinks he’s a crazy guy and doesn’t want anything to do with him but shortly after the date she begins having very vivid dreams about all her past lives.

Helen, a witch, is a woman caught in a course badly performed which winds up throwing her and her protectant into a loop where every 35 years, around the time of her birthday, she calls for him to help her and he comes.  They begin a relationship where they both fall in love with each other and he saves her from whatever bad romance/marriage she finds herself in.  This time, during her Helen incarnation, it appears that her powers are such that she is finally going to be able to break the curse.  However, in order to do that she must kill her protectant.  Knowing how she feels about him, will she be able to do it?

This is Constance’s debut novel.  I think the writing was great.  The description was just enough to make me feel like I was included in the story.  The characters were three dimensional and we could see Helen’s growth throughout the story.

If I had one complaint about this book would be that the third incarnation felt too unreal and maybe even rushed.  I could not understand all the people involved in it and was not sure what their real role in the story was.

I am so glad I picked up this book and I cannot wait to see more by this author.

My first five star read of 2020.

Audio Book – The Deal of a Lifetime by Frederick Backman

The Witch Chronicles is not doing it for me.  It’s actually set me back on my reading the past month.  It’s not that the book is bad, it’s actually interesting in its own way.  I actually think the problem is me.  I’m starting to think that series are not for me.  I’m not sure why.  Perhaps it’s the fact that switching books makes me lose my momentum and by the time I pick up the next book I’m not interested anymore.  The story lost it’s interest.  I’m going to venture and say that the reason for this is that I’m a huge mood reader and also a mood writer…. more on that at a different time.

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So, I put down the Witch Chronicles and picked up two different books.  Here, in this blog I want to tell you about what I picked up as an audio book and why.

My weekends, for now, until I am no longer working, are reserved for cleaning.  Normally I put on a podcast and walk around the house picking up stuff, vacuuming and cleaning.  Sometimes I am so focused on what the podcast is talking about that I don’t even realize how long I’ve been cleaning which is a good thing.  Other times, like yesterday, there was nothing new in my podcast library to listen to so I decided to download a novella (I never read a novella) that I heard being discussed in one of the YouTube videos I was watching (sorry, don’t remember which channel).  The book is The Deal of a Lifetime by Fredrik Bachman.  I’ve never heard about this author or this book and honestly I didn’t even do any research on it.  I just knew that I needed to get something on phone to listen to while cleaning otherwise no cleaning would get accomplished.

I am not very far into the book (I didn’t do much cleaning) but I think I’m going to love the book.  So far it does not feel like a happy story.  It starts out as a man sitting on a couch while is wife and his son are sleeping.  While he sits there watching them he begins talking to his son about a little girl in the hospital with cancer.  Doesn’t seem very interesting but I was hooked from the very first paragraph.  Especially when the father says:  “I took a life….” WHAT?????? what does that mean? my brain could not understand this unexpected turn of events.  I don’t know what is going to happen.  I can tell you that not far into the novella I really like the little girl and even the man.

I have since looked into who the author is.  To my surprise Fredrik Backman is the author of A Man Called Ove, which I haven’t read because one of my friends told me she hated the book.  Depending on how I like this novella Frederik Backman may be the next author I explore.

Stay tuned for the next installment when I will review this short novella.

Ana

Book Review – The Black Witch Chronicles

The Black Witch – Book #1

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I debated on waiting to review this book until I was done with book #2 and review the series together.  I finished the book yesterday and immediately got the second book and started reading it.  I decided that I probably should review the first book now and the second when I finish the second so we can all have my ideas as I formulate them.

There are some things about this book which I very much enjoyed and there are some things about this book that I didn’t particularly care for.  I think Laurie Forest’s creates a very interesting world and develops it in front of the reader in a way that is not too full of description nor missing any of the necessary information.

The story follows Elloren, the granddaughter of the most powerful black witch in the land.  Elloren looks exactly like her grandmother with one small detail missing.  She has no magic.  Elloren’s parents died in battle when she was young and she and her brothers were raised by her uncle who as an eccentric raised them to be removed from magic.  Elloren never owned a wand and she’s learned to build violins which is something women in her tradition/culture as not allowed to do.

At the start of the story we Elloren’s aunt, a very powerful and wealthy Guardnerian who wants her to become Wandfasted (married) which goes against what her uncle wants.  Her uncle decides to allow Elloren to go with her aunt to the city to enroll and join her brothers at the University and only after she finishes her studies will he allow her to Wandfasted.  Before she leaves he makes Elloren promise him that she will wait until she finishes her studies.  Which she does.

At University she’s exposed to a variety of other cultures and magic systems.  Especially the “evil ones” with whom she’s forced to room since she’s not willing to be Wandfasted to the boy her aunt wants her to be Wandfasted to.

After picking up the book I found out that there’s a whole lot of controversy surrounding it.  Although a fantasy book, it covers some very deep subjects the most prominent of which is a cultural one.  How different cultures see each other and the falsities we learn about each other which become harmful to society.

The story includes dragons and elves and sea creatures.  All the things a good fantasy book must have in order to make the story complete and each creature comes with it’s own history and the reasons for their existence in the story.

What I didn’t like about the book

I think Laurie did a great job at showing how what we believe about each other can cause pain if we don’t take the time to get to the know each culture for what they are.  However, although I know that the novel is a young adult fantasy novel I was not prepared for the lectures on the evils of some of the cultures.  I get the reason for them to be in the book but perhaps they could have been handled different.

I don’t want to spoil the story but there is a part in the book where students are talking about what they believe and it just felt very childish to me.  I could have done without that part and have instead action explain why some believes were prevalent.

Another thing that seemed like a stretch to me was that with every different culture, Elloren seemed to know immediately what they were.  I get that some cultures are easier to spot than others but there a whole lot that are not.  That did not seem to be present.  She and all the other students seemed to know the background of every student just by looking at them.  The exception were the fae who are able to change their appearance.  I found this to be a bit jarring.

What I liked about the book

I enjoyed reading about the different magic systems.  I particularly enjoyed how the Lupine who are the werewolves (for lack of a better description) were written.  From where I’m standing they seemed to be the ones who are able to overlook the differences in everyone else and accept the differences.  I enjoyed seeing the development of those characters.

I enjoyed how the romance was written.  It was not too much in your face but it made a point.  It was descriptive without being too much.  There is one small thing about one of the love interests that could have been developed better.  At one point he goes to military training (it appears that most of the boys go through military training) and only at the time that he’s about to return to we find out that he and Elloren have been corresponding regularly.  This was not mentioned before and I thought this could have been flushed out a little more.

How I feel generally

I really enjoyed the book.  I think it’s a perfect read for the winter time – Yes, I pick most of my books by season.  I enjoyed the description of the school and the magic system was well developed.  Some of the story at times felt a little too young but that’s not the book’s fault as this is, in fact, a young adult novel.

I gave it 5 stars on Goodreads because the book kept me interested and the ending was interesting enough that I bought the next book immediately after.  I would recommend this book to a younger audience or someone just getting started in Fantasy.

Looking forward to her other works.

Ana

The Dutch House Book Review

Title:  The Dutch House
Genre:  Historical Fiction
Price:  Amazon Kindle $14.99
Pages:  Kindle Edition 352
Publication date:  September 24, 2019
Publisher: Haper

The Dutch House by Ann Patchett

The Dutch House

I finished reading The Dutch House yesterday.  I will admit that I only started reading it because of the book club meeting at work coming up.  Unlike most of reviews I was not attracted to the cover at all.  I would probably picked it up at a bookstore but only because of the red color of the coat.  Red is an attention getter and that would probably had been the extent of it.  I would have put it back down and moved on to the next book on the shelf.

The first few pages were a struggle for me.  The writing is poetic and at the same time manages to be down to earth but the topic was not something I was able to get into at all. Again, had it not been for the meeting at work I would probably not have read it and DNF’d it almost immediately.  However, I am glad and thankful for that meeting which is scheduled for the 18th of this month.  I am actually really happy I finished the book.

This is my first novel by Ann Patchett.  I would love to say that it will not be my last but I am so afraid that the others will disappoint.  Not sure why but that always makes me nervous.  When I like a book so much I am always afraid to pick up another one for fear that it will disappoint.

The book follows a family in Philadelphia who lives in a very large, opulent home, The Dutch House.  The Dutch House is as much a character in the story as each of the people. in the story.  Danny, the young brother; Maeve, the older sister; Cyril, the father; and Elna, the mother.  There are also three maids/house keepers, Fluffly (her real name is Fiona); INSERT THE OTHER NAMES.  Prior to buying the house the family lived in a small apartment in Brooklyn and I got the sense that they moved prior to Danny being born.  The mother never got used to the house and, in fact, always hated it and spent a lot of time away from home.  The children, Danny and Meave, were never told why.  The father was emotionally distant to the children and the mother, the children were told, moved to Indian and left them behind.  Meave and Danny were raised by the housekeepers/nannies at different periods of their lives.

The book starts with introducing the reader to Andrea.  Andrea it appears always wanted to get inside the house.  She is the father’s girlfriend  whom the father later marries.  Andrea has two daughters Bright and Norma.  The tension between the new wife and the children was palpable from the start and the reader is lead to believe that it’s all because Meave and Danny feel as if she’s replacing their mother.  The father seemed to just give in to all of Andrea’s whims, and I, as the reader couldn’t help but feel that he just did not do well with conflict and preferred to just let her take the lead.  I never felt as if he didn’t care.

What I Liked

The writing.  The writing has got to be the one thing in the book that will stay with me for a long time.  I am normally very much involved in the plot of any book.  I enjoy the ups and downs and most of the time if the plot doesn’t grab me I’m most likely not going to enjoy the book.  I think this was the reason I had such a hard time at start of the book.

There is no plot….. for more than half of the book I had no idea where we were going.  However, the writing was so perfect that I didn’t care.  For the first time I allowed myself to become immersed in a story even though I had no clue where it was taking me.  What I was supposed to find at the end.  I found myself not caring about that and being completely taken in by the people in the story.  Their lives….

Reading this book was like sitting and chatting with a friend over a cup of coffee or a glass of wine and talking about life.  The book IS about life.

The other thing I really enjoyed was the friendship between the two siblings.  Being the older sister of a brother and having grown up being best friends I couldn’t help but let myself wonder how sometimes as we grow up we let that friendship fizzle.  We’re still great friends but not like Danny and Meave.  I also was able to see how that type of friendship between siblings can sometimes be detrimental to other relationships in our lives and throughout the book the reader is reminded of that.

What drove me crazy

Danny drove me crazy sometimes.  He was completely focused on the past.  Why he didn’t do something or why someone did something to him.  He let his past dictate his present and eventually his future.  He was so passive that it drove me nuts and I even found myself sometimes silently yelling at him to grow up.

Although Meave also focused on the past she was able to let it go and forgive the people who had hurt her because she knew that not forgiving or letting go would ultimately ruin her.  I felt bad for Danny that he could not do the something but I wanted him to learn to just let go and live his life.

The other thing that sometimes was frustrating was not knowing.  The fact that the book just kept going and talking bout the lives of all these people made me crazy sometimes.  I wanted to know the point.  Perhaps the thing is that there is no point.  We are here, as readers, to just enjoy listening (reading) about this family who is in a way like so many of us and is going through a lot of the things most of us go through.  Marriage, death, sickness, raising children, not getting along with in-laws and then getting along with in-laws, love and hate.  I think that once I realized that the point was to not have a point I was find and the book was amazing after that.

Do I Recommend It?

Absolutely.  I think that if you can get past the fact that the story is about a family just like your or anyone else’s in the world and they are just trying to survive then I think this book will teach you a few things.  I think you will enjoy the adventure.  It’s slow to happen but it will happen…. Trust me.

Favorite Quotes:

I’m not sure if this was Danny or Meave while they are sitting in the car talking.  They used to enjoy sitting in Meave’s car.  The car was where they had their deepest conversations and sometimes where Danny learned the most about his family and why thing happened the way they did.  During one of the conversations one of them had the following to say about how the past sometimes colors the present and the way we see things.

But we overlay the present onto the past. We look back through the lens of what we know now, so we’re not seeing it as the people we were, we’re seeing it as the people we are, and that means the past has been radically altered.

Danny talking about his father.

He had protected me from the world so completely that I had no idea what the world was capable of.

Danny thinking about the past and how it affects the present.

There are a few times in life when you leap up and the past that you’d been standing on falls away behind you, and the future you mean to land on is not yet in place, and for a moment you’re suspended, knowing nothing and no one, not even yourself.

#NaNoWriMo2019 Today was a struggle

Today, Day 3 of NaNoWriMo was a struggle.  I’m not sure what it was but the entire day I was feeling sort of blah and not in the mood to do anything . I’m going to theorize and say that it was the hour change that messed me up.  I got up super early and actually got quite a few words down which helped out towards the end of the day when I started feeling like I was running out of steam.

Here’s today’s video.

Are you doing NaNoWriMo this year?  How’s it going?  Let me know if you have any tips for when you feel blah and how to break through it.

Wish you all lots of luck and I’ll see you all soon.

Ana

On Writing that Novel…. Well….

So I may be writing a television script! Now What

I promised myself that this is where I would be taking accountability for this #NaNoWriMo adventure I’ve put myself on.  Like I don’t have enough adventures … I don’t…. but that’s not the point.  The actual point is that I don’t have the time…. I do….. but again, that’s not the point.

Last weekend, and let’s be clear, 2 weeks before the actual NaNoWriMo starts I basically abandoned the novel planning and decided that my story would be best told in a scrip format.

Really?  a script?  What do I know about script writing?  absolutely nothing …. then again, what do I know about novel writing.  So if I’m going to do this should I be going with my instincts?  considering that my experience with novel writing and script writing is about the same (nothing) then why not go with my instincts?

Having said all this, I am stressed out.  I have completely abandoned all the work that I put into planning a novel.  It was IT IS such a great idea.  It’s not wasted.  It’s still there and it will be there for when I’m ready to finally write it.  My stress is that I now have 2 weeks to start the writing marathons and I have not planned my anything.  I don’t even know how to begin writing.  WHAT?  I’m not even sure I have story!!!!

I told you, if you stick around this place you’ll always have an adventure around the corner.  What do you think will happen next week?  Will I have the script planned out and be ready to write?  What will the story be? I’m still not sure.

Ana