Today, Day 3 of NaNoWriMo was a struggle. I’m not sure what it was but the entire day I was feeling sort of blah and not in the mood to do anything . I’m going to theorize and say that it was the hour change that messed me up. I got up super early and actually got quite a few words down which helped out towards the end of the day when I started feeling like I was running out of steam.
Here’s today’s video.
Are you doing NaNoWriMo this year? How’s it going? Let me know if you have any tips for when you feel blah and how to break through it.
Wish you all lots of luck and I’ll see you all soon.
I promised myself that this is where I would be taking accountability for this #NaNoWriMo adventure I’ve put myself on. Like I don’t have enough adventures … I don’t…. but that’s not the point. The actual point is that I don’t have the time…. I do….. but again, that’s not the point.
Last weekend, and let’s be clear, 2 weeks before the actual NaNoWriMo starts I basically abandoned the novel planning and decided that my story would be best told in a scrip format.
Really? a script? What do I know about script writing? absolutely nothing …. then again, what do I know about novel writing. So if I’m going to do this should I be going with my instincts? considering that my experience with novel writing and script writing is about the same (nothing) then why not go with my instincts?
Having said all this, I am stressed out. I have completely abandoned all the work that I put into planning a novel. It was IT IS such a great idea. It’s not wasted. It’s still there and it will be there for when I’m ready to finally write it. My stress is that I now have 2 weeks to start the writing marathons and I have not planned my anything. I don’t even know how to begin writing. WHAT? I’m not even sure I have story!!!!
I told you, if you stick around this place you’ll always have an adventure around the corner. What do you think will happen next week? Will I have the script planned out and be ready to write? What will the story be? I’m still not sure.
Half of October is already gone and I’ve been working on planning and plotting my novel. I’m not sure I’ve succeeded. Well at least not in the way that I envisioned a “real planner” would. perhaps I’m a combination of planner and a pantser
Planner v. Pantser
They are two approaches to first draft story writing. Why Planner and Pantser? Planners are writers who plan their novels, and Pantsers write their stories by the seat of their pants. Detailed outlines are the purview of Planners, typically completed before a single word of the actual story is set onto page.
Most of my life I have been a planner, I love my check lists and I live by my calendar. I carefully make sure I have all my to-do’s organized and worked out every evening before bed and like most planners, I sleep much better when I know what is on my plate for the next day. I know, of course, that things change and I am fully capable of changing course if an unexpected issue comes up. Having said that, I was fully prepared to be the same way about my writing.
I should have known better!
Turns out, I’m not so much into knowing every single detail of my novel before I start writing it. I tried, but besides feeling completely stressed out and uninspired, I achieved very little else in the past two weeks.
Last night, I sat at my laptop while watching some NaNoWriMo videos and began working in Scrivener in cork-board mode and the excitement of the story began to resurface. So, for what I can tell, being a planner in some aspects of your life does not mean you will be a planner as a writer. Although, I would not say that I’m a pantser either.
I have tried to write many novels. I’ve had a million ideas for novels. However, this is the first time I am actually going to put myself out there and write something. I say all that to say that I’m not sure how or where I fit in and honestly I’m not sure I want to fit in any of the boxes already laid out for me. So what, I’m not a planner and know every single little detail of the story before I write the story? Also, so what I’m not a pantser and I can’t just sit at my computer and start typing something without some sort of “map” to show me at least a direction? the point is to write and discover who I am as a writer.
A lot has happened this year. Some things have been great and others… well, not so much. I’m no longer bitter and right now I’m choosing not to fight the tides. Going with the flow has allowed me the opportunity to relax and see into the future a little better.
I remember a conversation I had with my father at a pretty young age when I revealed the fact that I wanted to be a writer. Perhaps a journalist…. the practical side of me knowing that a journalist would at least have a steady paycheck and that would make dad happy. It didn’t!!!!! I remember being told that writing was a hobby, not a profession and that I needed to get a profession where I would be able to support myself. Not bad advice but not great either. I don’t remember specifics at this point in my life anymore. I don’t know what happened once that advice was imparted but I believe that was the moment when I gave up my dreams of ever writing for a living. I didn’t even give it another try and I think I put away all my writing tools to focus on making my father happy.
Don’t get me wrong, we arrived at an agreement. I would not become a doctor nor a writer but I would be something that made both of us a little happy. It’s been a good run and I’ve enjoyed the benefits of being very good at what I do. However, as I said in the beginning of this post. A lot has happened this year……. some great and some not so much. In the midst of all the happenings I have set out a challenge for myself. I have found the courage to at least try to do what I want to do.
Write….. I’m going to write!!!!!
I’ve signed up for NaNoWriMo this year. If you don’t know what that is NaNoWriMo stands for National Novel Writing Month. In the month of November many published authors and some that are not published yet get together and form a community of writers who set goals for the month to write a novel or finish one… some make goals to edit a novel and get it ready to print and publish. This year, I’ve decided to enter and write 50,000 words of a novel I’ve been “cooking” up in my head. Through the month of November I will be writing and posting here with my progress. I don’t particularly care if no one reads it. This is for me, my dream, my life. As I said, some things that happened were good and some not so much but they all have allowed me to see that living others’ dreams is worth it. We all have disappointments but it’s far better to be disappointed having done something you loved and set your heart on fire than be disappointed having lived someone else’s life
A lot has changed this year…… and this is not the only dream I’m working on.